Day 2: Quantum Light Breath

As this is a Thursday's Tantra, I thought I would talk more about a Solo practice of a Dynamic Breathing Meditation called Quantum Light Breath, along with talking about the journey.

I love a new version of the meditation by Richard Bach and the QLB Orchestra. Rather than taking pieces of music from different artists and putting them together in a compilation (as all the other previous QLB CD's have been), the music here is all live. And it's beautiful. Richard's voice is always soothing and healing- has always made me purr. Along with the asthetics of his voice, his words in the CD really trigger body awarenesses and awakenings for me.

One of the things that he keeps talking about is making love to yourself, the universe, feeling the energy all the way down to the first chakra, opening the heart to unconditionally loving the self. He also brought focus for me to that area between the heart and throat chakra that some consider a "newly activated" chakra- The Thymus Chakra, vibrating at the color turquoise. This is where my focus is today.

I first started doing Jeru Kabbal's Quantum Light Breath tape in...wow...1993....maybe earlier. It's a profound tape that was (and probably still is) used by lots of workshop leaders because it just didn't get any better in terms of effectiveness for being a tool to help people open up. The music (much of it from the soundtrack to the movie "The Mission") had people releasing all over the place. I highly recommend it as a tool for healing. I'm glad to have both in my healing audio tool box.

It was wonderful waking up earlier than I usually do these days. When I was at my happiest, feeling the freest, I was waking up at 4:30 or 5. These days, it's more like 6:30. Today I was spontaneouly wide awake at 5:15 or so. I think my desire to get back in Spiritual Shape was enough to get me up and moving. I began the meditation soon after rising, then did yoga.

It was wonderful. During the meditation, I got more deeply into the breathing today, amping it up to even more of a circular open mouth panting. I noticed after awhile that although body unthinkingly and spontaneously does a pelvic tilt whenever I breathe to release, my PC doesn't unconciously engage. I tried to remember to do so, but lost it when I got fully into the breath.

I cried more yesterday. It felt wonderful to have that release both days. One of the things I've always loved about this type of work (and why I got so hooked on it) is that it releases all sorts of stuff that I don't even have to focus on. I don't have to "know" what healing takes place, I just know that the breath brings in more life, which automatically heals. Today, I felt emotions come up, started to tear some, but then they just fluttered through. releasing to the universe.

One thing that came this time is the realization of how much energy I expend in keeping my body tight, holding in energy- my shoulders, chest, belly. Free feels better.

This time, about half way through the breathing, my whole body started to experience pain. It started in my belly, then moved through. My chest felt compressed and started to do that rattle thing I remember from doing this form of breathwork meditation long ago. I get a certain taste in my mouth that is unique to this breathing. My saliva changes consistency. After awhile, the breath started to breathe me, instead of me breathing the breath.

Which brings me to my only desire for difference in this new CD...the intense portion of the breathing is too short for me. For this reason, I will probably switch back and forth between the two versions, or also use the tape I made for myself years ago. I was really moving the energy with the intense rapid breathing when they started to slow down. My body wasn't ready to. It kept wanting to flail and move and breathe deeply/quickly/intensely. I kept it going for awhile, but the energy totally changed so my rhythm felt off. Since I'm so auditorially and physically based, I prefer the music to relflect, add to, and enhance my experience or I get discombobulated.

When I was done, there was that wonderful oneness that permeates everything. Shimmers. Yum.

My breath now, later in the day, is deeper, fuller. I'm happier and not much is affecting me. However, I'm also noticing that if I do go over into a tweak, my reaction is a little more intense. I cried at the beauty of life lots yesterday. Although feeling really peaceful and happy today, I had a fairly trivial thing happen and it really irritated me.

But, I see these as indications that things are moving, getting stirred, closer to the surface.

A grand beginning.

Don't forget to visit my Tantra Sister, Greenwoman who talks more about her solo practice here. Great stuff!!!

Images:
CD cover from here...it's where you can buy it. I bought mine from Amazon..but when I went there today, it was gone. Might want to check back as it was cheaper there.
Chakra Man from here