My Friend, Abraham

I have a confession to make. I've only finished one book on self help or spirituality in about the last six years or so. I've started a few others after listening to friends rave, but I generally get bored after a few pages and stop. It all seems to be the same message to me, just said differently. And while I know it hits everyone in different ways at different times and am happy it all exists, I just got to a point where I couldn't read them any more.

But....I do have one friend that I am definitely hooked into and depend on as a guide: Abraham.

I've been on their weekly tape program on and off for many years. I have to admit that just like I've mentioned above with books, there is nothing there that's new for me. I see Abraham as my friend. So just like any other friend, I glean things that I'm missing...seeing pieces of the picture in different ways than I saw them before. But truth is, I get just as much enlightenment from conversations with my best friend on our morning walks. Like Abraham, she sees the world pretty much in the same ways that I do, but with just enough difference to call me on my stuff, or provideinsight on a situation that I might have missed. I love the conversations she and I have and I love conversation with Abraham.

I went to an Abraham workshop in May of 2000. When I went back to listen to the recording of it to have it fresh in my mind, I was shocked at how much time has passed. I thought it was just a few years ago, but that's the date on it. Wow. Time flies. While there, I got to ask a question. My question was about trying to understand what I saw as a glitch in what Abraham was saying and the things I perceived.

At that time, Abraham was stressing the importance of turning away from the negative and focusing on something positive whenever negative emotion came up. The message was: Go to a movie, pet a cat, do anything to get the mind off it. There was talk of how an issue is like a stick and with the two ends being the spectrum of emotional possibility- the one that feels good and the one that doesn't. And if we didn't feel good, to just be certain to pick up the right end of the stick to get in the alignment that would result in allowing so creation would occur. From all I heard on the older tapes, the message was to just NOT THINK about what doesn't feel happy.

I understood this...saw the logic of it in terms of LOA, but there was a subtle glitch for me. If I am to NOT think about what's really going on, forcing myself to focus on the positive, isn't that a form of "not allowing?" Plus, everything I had learned, and had reference to, spoke to how when I'm in the place I'm in...allowing all of me no matter what it is...then things have the opportunity to shift and transmute of their own accord, instead of being buried (which is what I was interpreting the message to be).

So I came to the hot seat with my question about the gift of being where I am, but couldn't really communicate it in the ways I wanted to. So I brought up all sorts of examples of what I was talking about:

- a Morman woman in labor who is demure in life, but dialates quickly in labor when she animals out.

- when my back hurt, I stayed with it, trying to be positive, but the pain persisted. When I screamed for a long time, feeling rage, it disappeared

- in talking to people who are into BDSM, submissives report the same ecstatic state that I have experienced in Tantra with breathwork. So embracing pain can lead to ecstasy.

-that when people do things that aren't always considered to be politically correct, that they heal faster and are happier than those who are trying to be positive pleasers

...things like that. Abraham's reply was the one that they stressed at the time: that whenever the negative is focused on, it increases through Law Of Attraction so to only focus on the positive. I was my persistent self and just kept asking more, thinking I hadn't communicated effectively enough. It even got to the point where Abraham asked me what it was that I had come there to tell them. (hehehehehhehe)

Fast forward a few years. I am listening to a tape and hear, for the first time, Abraham talk about being with whatever feeling is present in the moment. That if you feel anger, feel it. If you feel revenge, feel it because when you are with wherever you are, you allow the energy to shift. Now this, the question I had asked years ago, is the main message that Abraham stresses.

So what did I learn here? I learned that Teachers love students that question them. I appreciate Abraham and am so thankful I found them..it was quite magical, actually, how they came into my life. I give huge thanks to those tapes for reminding me of what I know when I am in fear and forget. I keep wondering if part of the reason I had such a difficult time last year was that I was on an energetic downslide partly a result of not having listened to the tapes very much the previous year. When it gets scary for me, I need help....from whatever friend is there for me.

I don't think that Abraham or any other real Teacher wants sheep. They like being challenged. We all have the capacity to figure all this stuff out, to tap into the knowledge that comes through Esther. Abraham will be the first to say it, and also affirms that they want those on the leading edge to ask questions as this is where new creative thought occurs.

Another great lesson: I'm continually learning, on deeper and deeper levels, to trust myself and my Voice. It's taken many years, but I'm getting there more and more. Yes, I slip back, yes I fall of the Path when I fear. But even just these past few months, I'm seeing, again, that there have been way too many times when I've suggested something, been met with resistence or denial, started to question myself and then get the affirmation that I am right on track for me.

So the gem that my friend opened my eyes to this morning?

That if you have tons of people "worried" about something you're doing, it's a great sign. Why? Because it means that in this moment, when they are warning you about something, their negative energy is an indication that their inner beings are not in alignment with the thought they are having about you...so you know you're in the right place. I loved that as it is SO applicable to my life these past two years. These ah-ha's are the reason I keep in contact with my friend.

Art:
Friendship by Pablo Picasso from here
Friendship from here
Friendship Circle by Laila Campbell from here

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Thanks, Edward!!!