How I Do Law Of Attraction
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Yeah...so....I have this knowing that I create my world. Why/how would I choose anything other than a perfect life? Is my life perfect? Am I always smiling, feeling that Divine Connection and Mystical Oneness I have experienced so many times?
No.
I can get lost. My mind starts going places that bring pain. I go into negativity, losing Trust in my Voice. I forget that what is in front of me is safe, that nothing can harm me, that I am on my Path, that all is well. I know that all experience is experience...but I'm human, not an Avatar. I don't stay in BlissEnlightenment all the time. I've stopped placing that expectation on myself.
I came here to be alive and experience all that is. Sometimes, it's not happy. Sometimes things are not what my mind wants them to be. I am in pain. I cry. I can be very good at whining. I get angry, upset, frustrated, lose hope. All of it.
How do I live this Truth of Creating My World? How does Law of Attraction work in my real, practical day to day life? What is my process? Where do I go?
I shifted a few months ago, but in my very recent history
No.
I can get lost. My mind starts going places that bring pain. I go into negativity, losing Trust in my Voice. I forget that what is in front of me is safe, that nothing can harm me, that I am on my Path, that all is well. I know that all experience is experience...but I'm human, not an Avatar. I don't stay in BlissEnlightenment all the time. I've stopped placing that expectation on myself.
I came here to be alive and experience all that is. Sometimes, it's not happy. Sometimes things are not what my mind wants them to be. I am in pain. I cry. I can be very good at whining. I get angry, upset, frustrated, lose hope. All of it.
How do I live this Truth of Creating My World? How does Law of Attraction work in my real, practical day to day life? What is my process? Where do I go?
I shifted a few months ago, but in my very recent history
My Story was this:
After being a Sparkly Bliss Bunny for a number of years, thinking I had mastered things and that life would only get better and better, I slowly and inexorably spiralled down into a place where I stayed stuck for a couple of years. Life as I thought it would be did not manifest. A very good life fell away, piece by piece. This new life was a dream I chose with full consciousness. My Inner Voice was so clear that this was the right path. The risks that others reminded me of were ones that I had considered, but from my perspective, they weren't that much of a long shot.
I was wrong. Or I had misguided expectations about timings. I don't know...the jury is still out, and I am letting it go. By defining my experience as a Risk, I opened myself to all that means to me. Part of my definition involves a possibility of delay or failure, especially when dealing with unconscious creation, or what one Teacher calls "creation by default." I've lost faith in my Voice a number of times these past two years. It seems it's gone in cycles where I am fine, I trust, then the world falls apart. I got depressed when I thought of my blocks to abundance and was in total confusion about which Path to take to find my way out of the mess. I knew that if I was in alignment, this would not be. And that, in some ways makes it even more difficult. I refuse to be a Victim, but it's not as convenient when I cannot "blame" anyone/anything else but myself for being right exactly where I am.
I've detached from the tenacious emotional entanglement I created. I no longer cling, no longer try to force things by focusing on what isn't working, thereby creating more of "not working." Part of my frustration was that I feel such a passion for this vision. Part of the Story, part of my justification for making my life hell by trying to force things before I am ready, is that it's such a good vision. It serves humanity and the planet in what I feel are really good ways. I've worked really hard to get it to manifest, my partner has been working about 50 times harder. It gets to this point, then right when it feels like this will be the time it will shift, completion eludes. It's never for the same reason. He is a Master at what he does. There is no reason for it not to have completed, except it doesn't. I/we have a block.
After being a Sparkly Bliss Bunny for a number of years, thinking I had mastered things and that life would only get better and better, I slowly and inexorably spiralled down into a place where I stayed stuck for a couple of years. Life as I thought it would be did not manifest. A very good life fell away, piece by piece. This new life was a dream I chose with full consciousness. My Inner Voice was so clear that this was the right path. The risks that others reminded me of were ones that I had considered, but from my perspective, they weren't that much of a long shot.
I was wrong. Or I had misguided expectations about timings. I don't know...the jury is still out, and I am letting it go. By defining my experience as a Risk, I opened myself to all that means to me. Part of my definition involves a possibility of delay or failure, especially when dealing with unconscious creation, or what one Teacher calls "creation by default." I've lost faith in my Voice a number of times these past two years. It seems it's gone in cycles where I am fine, I trust, then the world falls apart. I got depressed when I thought of my blocks to abundance and was in total confusion about which Path to take to find my way out of the mess. I knew that if I was in alignment, this would not be. And that, in some ways makes it even more difficult. I refuse to be a Victim, but it's not as convenient when I cannot "blame" anyone/anything else but myself for being right exactly where I am.
I've detached from the tenacious emotional entanglement I created. I no longer cling, no longer try to force things by focusing on what isn't working, thereby creating more of "not working." Part of my frustration was that I feel such a passion for this vision. Part of the Story, part of my justification for making my life hell by trying to force things before I am ready, is that it's such a good vision. It serves humanity and the planet in what I feel are really good ways. I've worked really hard to get it to manifest, my partner has been working about 50 times harder. It gets to this point, then right when it feels like this will be the time it will shift, completion eludes. It's never for the same reason. He is a Master at what he does. There is no reason for it not to have completed, except it doesn't. I/we have a block.
And now, I am in the unemotional state of: if I can get myself aligned, then it will be. I am no longer willing to be in pain with the clinging. I continue to let go of all the creative energies behind my beliefs in the story, the justifications/beliefs of all the words I used in italics in the paragraph above that keep me stuck.
But back then, I lost trust in the process, trust in my vision, trust in my Voice. I had spiralled down into a true Dark Night Of The Soul, with it peaking last fall until Christmas. My tools weren't working. I would start to come out of it then dive deeper into depression as time went on. Finally, after my daughter had a major incident at the hospital and I had to face the thought of losing her, I think I broke my resistence to fighting off pain. Instead of trying to be positive and flow with what is, feeling pain but not fully allowing all I know it can be, I embraced it. I went completely into pain and devastation, with the eye that it was Life and this cycle would end, with me returning to joy again some day.
I've been slowly making my way back, with these last two months or so being able to see more light than shadow. It grows exponentially every day. But that doesn't mean the shadow is fully gone. I sometimes have to work at changing the vibration that I established slowly over those two years. I find myself going back to fear when I am off...sick....frustrated...questioning...tired of patterns in my outer world (I am such a hedonist). But these episodes are getting further and further apart and the peace stays in increasingly longer cycles. I feel I am on my way to reshifting my vibrations and get my creations back on track to the way I want them to be--back to where I was and higher, rather than attracting/creating my fears.
My work/play these days:
Because I create and that creation is from my thought pattern, I want to focus on where I want to be, not what is in front of me. It's not a denial, it's a choice...big, important difference. It's an acceptance of where I am in this moment, not fighting what is, not trying to make pretty, but also not believing it has any basis in Truth. It isn't all of me. What is in front of me now is a result of my past vibrational offerings. I may not be able to be a blissbunny yet, but I can find something to take my focus off what is in front of me, see and allow it as temporary therefore not a monster. I can get me more into alignment with what I want. If I have happier or even more neutral energy running, I inch closer.
When I was in this cycle before, about eleven years ago, I flashed on an image one day while walking. I was in a huge room that stretched further than the eye could see. It was full of gears of all sizes- some as small as a few inches, some 20 feet tall. I had the lead gear in front of me. It was my job to turn all these gears. I would feel/see myself standing ready to move my gear, knowing that when I pushed mine it would start all the others moving. I knew the ones further away, many of which I could not see, might take a bit more time to move as the system aligned itself. Not much, mind you, but there was a bit of a lag time between what I put in motion and all of it moving together. This was the meditation/visualization I did many times throughout the day. Magic began.
These days when/if I start to feel "off," I allow that to be there, and simultaneous
ly see myself in a boat on a river. I usually listen to Abraham tapes when I walk and this is a metaphor they are using now. I love water, love to row. It felt good so I adopted it. I put myself in the river, I feel the boat, with the oar in my arms. I feel myself turn the boat from trying to paddle upstream. I feel it turn, slowly, so that it's now going down the river, requiring no effort from me to move. The oars are just for steering. Life will carry me, my inner being will carry me, once I let go of the belief that I have to struggle upstream to get to where I want....especially since everything I want is downstream.
I've been slowly making my way back, with these last two months or so being able to see more light than shadow. It grows exponentially every day. But that doesn't mean the shadow is fully gone. I sometimes have to work at changing the vibration that I established slowly over those two years. I find myself going back to fear when I am off...sick....frustrated...questioning...tired of patterns in my outer world (I am such a hedonist). But these episodes are getting further and further apart and the peace stays in increasingly longer cycles. I feel I am on my way to reshifting my vibrations and get my creations back on track to the way I want them to be--back to where I was and higher, rather than attracting/creating my fears.
My work/play these days:
Because I create and that creation is from my thought pattern, I want to focus on where I want to be, not what is in front of me. It's not a denial, it's a choice...big, important difference. It's an acceptance of where I am in this moment, not fighting what is, not trying to make pretty, but also not believing it has any basis in Truth. It isn't all of me. What is in front of me now is a result of my past vibrational offerings. I may not be able to be a blissbunny yet, but I can find something to take my focus off what is in front of me, see and allow it as temporary therefore not a monster. I can get me more into alignment with what I want. If I have happier or even more neutral energy running, I inch closer.
When I was in this cycle before, about eleven years ago, I flashed on an image one day while walking. I was in a huge room that stretched further than the eye could see. It was full of gears of all sizes- some as small as a few inches, some 20 feet tall. I had the lead gear in front of me. It was my job to turn all these gears. I would feel/see myself standing ready to move my gear, knowing that when I pushed mine it would start all the others moving. I knew the ones further away, many of which I could not see, might take a bit more time to move as the system aligned itself. Not much, mind you, but there was a bit of a lag time between what I put in motion and all of it moving together. This was the meditation/visualization I did many times throughout the day. Magic began.
These days when/if I start to feel "off," I allow that to be there, and simultaneous
ly see myself in a boat on a river. I usually listen to Abraham tapes when I walk and this is a metaphor they are using now. I love water, love to row. It felt good so I adopted it. I put myself in the river, I feel the boat, with the oar in my arms. I feel myself turn the boat from trying to paddle upstream. I feel it turn, slowly, so that it's now going down the river, requiring no effort from me to move. The oars are just for steering. Life will carry me, my inner being will carry me, once I let go of the belief that I have to struggle upstream to get to where I want....especially since everything I want is downstream.I also pray. I sit and meditate (realign my energy) on being a vehicle of my inner Spirit that is one with The All. That I now let go of the energy that I am using to separate myself and fully open to listening to what I know is there inside me but which I am not hearing. I remind myself that I want to feel good, because when I do things will flow and I will be of Service. It's OK to be where I am right now and that I am slowly changing my insides to be where I want to be.
Life continues to shift. I don't feel I am in the surreal haze I was in, having to consciously put one foot slowly in front of the other to be able to walk. I have angels and fairies abounding that support and help me on my Path. They are there waiting for me to open my eyes and allow their support and love in. Life is good.
And I'm getting really close to the space I was in before, which was me running, flittering around, all sparkly, saying every day in grateful wonderment:
I love my life!!!
Life continues to shift. I don't feel I am in the surreal haze I was in, having to consciously put one foot slowly in front of the other to be able to walk. I have angels and fairies abounding that support and help me on my Path. They are there waiting for me to open my eyes and allow their support and love in. Life is good.
And I'm getting really close to the space I was in before, which was me running, flittering around, all sparkly, saying every day in grateful wonderment:
I love my life!!!
Art and Photo Credits
Beginnings from Lunar Archives sorry...I cannot figure out who the artist is....
Hope in the Prison Of Despair by Evelyn De Morgan
River pic borrowed from John Bokma
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4 comments:
let me pedantic, the space you are coming into is evolved from that of before. Not the same. It's higher on the spiral. You are a deep deep woman. Don't forget the process is not only you. Be the boat, the oar, the water, and still more, be the current......
Loving you
Hi, Warrior- Yup.
You know all this don't you? This is like a child trying to teach his grandmother to suck eggs. Oh well
hehehheehehe......yer funny
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